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No Maverick Molecules – Brain Tumor and Depression

First in a series about my journey back to life after brain cancer surgery in 2004 and the depression that followed.

Life is uncertain. We often take living for granted but no one really knows if they will wake up the next morning. Mozart said it was a great blessing to be aware of one’s mortality.

Living life by principles is better than just wandering through it. Still, the urgent and the trivial consume our time, leaving the important things undone. Stephen Covey’s Quadrant 2 activities rarely get done because we’re consumed with the tyranny of the urgent, the ringing telephone, the next political blog article to write, etc.

People have told me I should write about my experiences, so my New Year’s resolution is to get started on this story, which will take a couple of years to tell.

Stuttering Incident only a Foreshadow

In October 2003 I had a stuttering incident where I couldn’t fi-i-i-i-nish a sentence at the dinner table. An aura came over me and I said, “Wow, that was weird.” We had it checked out and the doctors thought it was a TIA (mini stroke). Turns out it was really a petit mal seizure and the bomb would hit a few months later.

December 16, 2003

Another dinner table conversation, this time interrupted by a grand mal seizure. There were more clues and a correct diagnosis after numerous tests: probable low grade malignant brain tumor. I was scheduled for a biopsy in early January and told to go home and have a nice Christmas. We could read between the lines – it might be my last.

Long story short, the biopsy confirmed it was an oligodendroglioma, neurosurgeons at the Hermelin Brain Tumor Center at Henry Ford Hospital removed the tumor in March, 2004, and a year of chemotherapy followed that. GM was very good to me throughout this ordeal, giving me an extended leave of absence and half time work at a less demanding job when I returned.

List-Maker, List-Maker, Make Me a List

The tumor was in the speech area of my brain, the part involved with list-making and organizing. I worked with a speech therapist throughout the summer, staring out the dining room window working on my homework, struggling to make a list of ten things that are green: “Oh yeah, grass, bushes, trees.”

Embarrassed when tested on naming vegetables in 90 seconds, all I could think of was broccoli, carrots and cauliflower, and then my mind went blank for a very awkward 80 seconds.

The brain is kind of like a Microsoft Windows program, which has icons, drop-down menus and keyboard short cuts. With the regular paths severed by the surgery, my brain developed new pathways to get the job done that summer.

The final exam was planning and executing a back yard landscaping project. Making a list of the steps involved was the hard part: tearing out the old bushes, preparing the soil, buying the new bushes, planting them, planting new grass seed. Doing the work in the sunshine was good therapy.

The lilac bushes are have long been taller than me as I mow the grass each year – a real blessing to be alive and physically able to do things like driving again.

Ameri-I-Can, not I-Can’t

Returning to work was a scary experience. I had long term memory but had difficulty with short-term memory, background noise and learning new things. Gradually these deficits faded and I’m able to contribute fully at work again. Focusing on what you have and not what’s missing is key. The last few years I’ve been hitting on all cylinders again.

Unexpected Hurdle

As difficult as a brain tumor is, a far bigger mountain for me and my family was the depression that followed. My mood swings got worse until I was hospitalized in January, 2007. By the grace of God, I also survived that life-threatening illness and plan to tell the story to encourage others with family members suffering from mental illness.

When depressed I honestly couldn’t think of three things to be thankful for, a darker cloud than not being able to name vegetables. Life didn’t seem worth living, but I was stubborn enough to keep putting one foot in front of the other. With lots of prayers and encouragement I persevered. I’d been told by others that it was a season and things would get better, but didn’t believe it could be true for me.

Make a List of Assets and Use Them

The best advice we got was from a fellow engineer who had the same type of brain tumor five years before. He encouraged us in February, 2004 with a three ring binder and a one-page summary. Hit it with all the tools in your arsenal: conventional medical, alternative medicine, spiritual, diet, exercise, etc.

Later I used that same method to fight the depression, leaning heavily on God again. Lately I’ve been brushing up on my German and have published word by word translations of the Loreley poem and Silent Night. Knowing and singing hymns are one of the things that sustained me during both trials. Music connects with the soul, and the theology in good hymns is embedded in the mind.

A New Bible Translation

Having recently started a word-by-word translation of Martin Luther’s Bible from German to English, I’m planning to publish the book of Matthew a chapter at a time on the Patch, with commentary to follow a week or so later. Hopefully people will contribute to a discussion on what the text says and debate my opinions on it.

Giving Back and Paying it Forward

The last few years have been good. I’ve enjoyed being a judge twice at the FIRST LEGO League state competition and writing an article about it.

With some foreign born coworkers, I have also helped the new USA Melting Pot club get off the ground. This club is unique in focusing on the mingling of all ethnic groups, regardless of country of origin or how long their ancestors have been here. 

We have had eight meetings so far, with Chinese, Indian, Korean, German, and Brazilian cultures and their contributions to America, with a picnic at the Troy Historic Village to learn about 1800s American history. We also cover outdoor activities like bicycling, canoeing and camping; the January topic will be cross-country and downhill skiing.

Our next meeting is Thursday, January 17, 7-9 p.m., when Mrs. Joya Shepard, Personnel Director of GM’s Orion Plant, will speak at the Troy Public Library on African-American culture, history, food, and traditions.

You can see the meeting notice and read more about our club in Weilou Gao’s post. It includes a summary of the November meeting on Canada when Rick Vriesen presented and the December meeting when Consul Vicente Sanchez spoke on Mexico.

Conclusion

So watch for more articles about my illness and the Bible translation in the midst of articles about politics, history and travel. I’ll link back to this one so people can read the whole series, explaining more about the No Maverick Molecules title as we go.

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Dale Murrish January 18, 2013 at 10:42 PM
Good to hear from you across the ocean, Paul! We’re planning to cover Ireland during our March USA Melting Pot club meeting at the Troy Public Library (tentative Saturday, March 16, 12:30-2:30 p.m.) and would welcome your input. A former coop student in our group studied abroad in Reutlingen, Germany last fall. A Chinese restaurant there gave him the same calendar you sent me, so apparently the calendar you sent me from the Chinese Palace in Ardee is popular with other Chinese restaurants in Europe. Ireland was one of the favorite countries he visited on weekends while studying in Germany – people were very friendly and welcoming. He is planning to show his slides from Dublin, Limerick and other places in March. We’ll be in touch by email and maybe you can call in to the meeting and present part of the material remotely.
Andrew Pyper May 14, 2013 at 01:08 AM
Dale, what a wonderful story of perseverance under extremely difficult circumstances. I know will use your inspiration to help others. Thanks for sharing this. Continued prayers, Andrew
Laurel Baciulis Smith September 09, 2013 at 08:52 PM
Dale! What a surprise to have been looking for information about different brain tumors and come across your blog! I remember you from the early years of Kensington, doing the video work with you. I had an inner ear tumor removed 4.5 years ago that has left me deaf on the left side and having many other physical troubles (dizziness, memory troubles, tinnitus, etc). I am happy you were able to fight through your depression and all the other things that came with the tumor and surgery. Take care--good to read your words! Laurel (Baciulis) Smith
Dale Murrish September 27, 2013 at 06:06 PM
Laurel – just stumbled across your comment. Wow, the Kensington portable church goes back a long ways! My wife and I go occasionally to the Hermelin Brain Tumor Center support group that meets at Henry Ford West Bloomfield, third Saturday of the month from 10-12 a.m. This group, coordinated by Sandy Remer of Henry Ford downtown where I had my surgery, has excellent speakers on a variety of topics. Or stop by one of our USA Melting Pot club events. It would be good to see you again and compare medical notes. I just had surgery this summer on infected bone. Will write more on that later. http://troy.patch.com/groups/dale-murrishs-blog/p/joy-in-troy-and-elsewhere--tour-detroit_f71fab3f
Dale Murrish September 27, 2013 at 06:06 PM
You can subscribe to my Patch blog if you want by clicking on the Subscribe button – then you’ll get an email each time I write a new article. Weilou Gao and I will present an update on USA MP club activities to the Troy City Council October 21, and the next Troy Public Library meeting is Fattum Mutahr on Yemeni Culture 12:00-1:30 Saturday, October 26. Check out our club website at http://usameltingpot.org/

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